After a year unlike no other as I approach my 37th birthday I find
myself reflecting on life so far, how it is right now and what I want
for the future.
A couple of years ago during a coaching session the penny dropped that
during the previous third of a century I could not recall ever feeling
'contented' for any sustained length of time.
My natural instincts are always to look forward and strive to achieve
the next thing on my agenda. I accept that this can make me single
minded and perhaps at times selfish in my pursuit of a goal. I am not
talking Olympic gold medals. Often the goals were (are) modest
achievements. As a child in the 1980s it may have been saving up my money for a
new Casio digital watch costing £8.
Nowadays I am more interested in cutting the
grass before it rains or trying to walk straight with the mower so my lines aren't wonky!
As a result of always looking forward I sometimes, almost always, fail
to live for today and savour the moment. The last 12 months have been
groundbreaking for me.
In December we sold our house and moved into my Mum's for 6 months whilst a new house was being built.
On New Year's Day my wife told me that we were expecting our first child.
On March 1st I started a new job, my first job as a Managing Director, a dream job based wherever I want.
6 months have passed and we are living in our new home albeit that we
haven't even had a chance to choose/fit any light fittings and the
garage is half full of boxes.
4 weeks ago our little boy Ryan was born 4 weeks early; he was actually due tomorrow. In my humble, and completely biased opinion, he's perfect.
6 months into my new job and my new strategy for the business is clear and we are in implementation mode.
The house isn't my dream house. I desire a big piece of land with a
rolling mature garden where I need a sit on mower to maintain it. I'd
like a first floor room with floor to ceiling windows and an amazing
view. I could go on listing my requirements but it no longer matters.
For the first time ever I am content. I have everything I need right
here: my family around me, a house that has room for us to grow into and
a job that thrills me without killing me.
I've never been happier; long may I feel this way.
